That Awkward Space...

OK, so today is the first day back to work after handing in my letter of resignation last week. Other than the previously mentioned email there was no other contact between the doctor and I...until today.

He came in and he, I, and the office manager met to talk about the "transitional" period. I have committed to making this as smooth and cooperative as I can. We have a tech guy coming in this afternoon to cover the IT and Systems Administration side of my job, and there is another person coming in in the morning to talk about the Practice Administration side of things. I have been a busy bee over the past 19 months.

But the meeting was awkward. No mention of the letter that I wrote. No mention of the friendship we shared for 12 years. No apology. No "thank you." No "fuck you." No nothing. Kind of bland and icky. God, it was weird. It was a awkward space to be in...maybe more for him than for me.

Right now we are in business mode, emotions are aside at this point. There is a job to do and that is what I will do.

But as I have told many of my friends, "My stuff is my stuff and your stuff is your stuff." That is not my stuff. It's his. I have to live with my decision he will have to live with his. I want so much to ask, "so, what is your heart telling you? What do you really want to say?"

The next few weeks (actually an 8 day countdown) will be interesting to say the least. I will continue to provide updates and insights.

WH